Have you ever heard a song at an exact moment in your life and had it resonate so deeply with you that you just felt like it was written right for you at that very moment?
That was me, listening to Seventeen’s song “F*ck My Life” today.
I’ve spent the past week up and down emotionally, and today in particular I am very much in my feelings. While I was handling some blog work earlier, I was listening to a Seventeen playlist, and this song came on. I’d watched this video the day it dropped, and I remember liking the odd “Truman Show”-esque vibes of it, and that the lyrics were really meaningful…but it didn’t really hit until today, when I was just in an emotional state for it to REALLY hit me right in the heart.
This fucking world In this fucking world, I'm the only stupid I lost my way, I lost my aim Dumbest person alive Let's just forget all of this, let's just laugh through all of this Because this comfort is meaningless On my way back home I get choked up Keep feeling like crying, woah-oh-oh, oh I just wanna find myself before I disappear completely When I was young and watched cartoons I wondered why I couldn't be The main character like I would see My heart's all too blackened Isn't there anyone who could trade their heart with mine just for a day? In this fucking world, I'm the only stupid I lost my way, I lost my aim Dumbest person alivе From now on I'll fight for my life For my own good, fight for my life We'rе so used to feeling numb in this life Now I just wanna find myself I'm getting so tired dreaming by myself I'm so sick of it all now, just wanna give up Don't wanna be an embarrassment tomorrow for the me I knew yesterday Because this commitment is meaningless I look so dumb, it's almost ridiculous Keep feeling like crying, woah-oh-oh, oh I'm getting so numb to this life that it feels like I'm shrinking away I got a secret I can't tell and it's turning to tears again I can't tell a soul, I'm too ashamed for that Isn't there anyone who could trade their heart with mine just for a day? In this fucking world, I'm the only stupid I lost my way, I lost my aim Dumbest person alive From now on I'll fight for my life For my own good, fight for my life We're so used to feeling numb in this life Now I just wanna find myself We're so used to feeling numb in this life Now I just wanna find myself
Haven’t we all felt like this at some point in our lives, where we just feel so dumb and numb, feeling like you don’t fit into the world, but also wanting to be part of it, but afraid to reach out and tell someone, ANYONE, that you’re floundering?
As sad as the main concept behind the song is…there’s still a call to fight for your life. There’s still a reminder that we all have the capability to fight and make a stand, and not let the waves of life, stress, fears, anxiety drag you to the depths. You can still fight, you can still swim. There’s still joy and happiness to be had, and we all deserve it. It’s going to be a battle, but you can come out of the other side.
Give the video a watch real quick, and listen to the song if you haven’t yet.
A few dear friends have recently got me into Seventeen (thanks Eve, Jake, and Bee!), and I have been slowly listening to more of their stuff and picking out my favorites. I’ve decided Seventeen will be the first group that I’ll start going through their discography for the blog, so keep an eye out for more posts with my thoughts on their albums soon!
What do you think of the song “F*ck My Life”? Do you like it? Does it resonate with you? Let me know in the comments below, or on Twitter!